“I’m fine”, seems to have become my default response to anyone asking how I am doing or feeling for a few reasons. Mainly, it seems to be the easiest response to a question that I’m not quite sure people even want a real answer to. I have found that a lot of people ask either out of habit or to be polite, but don’t really want to hear how I really feeling. Saying “I’m fine” spares me the looks of pity and awkward stares when I express how I really am feeling and the person asking doesn’t actually want to know.
So for all the times I have answered someone inquiring about how I feel with “I’m fine”, here’s what I probably meant..
“My whole body is in excruciating pain”
“I’m in a full blown flare and feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest”
“I’m depressed because I don’t know if I’ll ever feel normal again”
“I’m scared I may die from this disease”
“I’m lonely because none of my friends understand what I’m going through”
“I’m feeling useless and lazy because I can’t get out of bed”
“I feel hopeless”
“I am anything but fine”
How do you respond when people ask how you feel? Let me know in the comments.